I'll be there soon.

Ensieh.

Workday.

You know those looks people give you when they think they're better than you? What seems like they want to open their mouth an say "I don't need to listen to you, you're meaningless to me." I get those everyday. I think, maybe, it has something to do with the side of town I live in, maybe where I work, might even be that I give off the type of energy that makes people feel that they're welcome to be placed above me. I understand that you, that blonde with the lip implants and pink tank top, you have never worked a day in your life and the world is at the tips of your toes, I understand you've treated people as if they're nothing since you can remember, and I get that daddy has given you everything you've ever wanted and more, but I feel like I'm better than you today. I feel that you try too hard to make yourself feel above me when the truth is, I'm better than you because I would never think of treating people like nothing, never thinking of walking past someone who made an honest effort to say hello, even though they were told to by a higher power. Accepting people will get me so much further than you will ever be. You will be stuck in this small town forever because this is where daddy's money is, this is where you have known, nothing outside these city walls, this is where the doctor is that's going to do your breast implants, your hair stylist, this is the town that you feel you have ruled your entire life.

Have fun with that. I'm off to bigger and better things, and it all came from the hard work and respect I disciplined myself with.

Currently listening:

Echo and the Bunnymen.

Life is only getting better by the second.

There have been so many changes

I'm independent, I'm happy, excited, busy, busy, busy, and so so in love with this world. I hope everything works out how I plan.

Heather and I are introducing our new fashion line..."Trees" very very soon! It's not only exciting, but it's fun and a good cause!

I've been so successful in everything I do recently and I just really hope everything continues to be this way!

My birthday is TOMORROW. I don't know what to do, I have school and work, so I guess not much, but I think it will still be fun.

Moving away to college is so important to me, and my parents are making it into vacations for themselves, I'm tired of it! But there's nothing I can do.

No complaining.

Hello New Day

I've cleaned my room, I worked 25 hours this week, I signed up for my SAT, all my laundry is done, I feel extremely productive. Now, if only I can get my summer school grade back up to an A by tomorrow, I'll be set. I'm sure I will, though. Life is getting easier and smoother by the second and it's scary!! I'm sure stress will take over soon, but I'll enjoy this while it lasts.

One thing that's worrying me is the whole money issue! I'm moving out in a year and there's no way I'll be able to at this rate! I either need a raise or another job, because only having this one is just not cutting it. BUT I'm so excited to finally be out and living!! I'll be on my own and supporting myself and there's nothing that has ever been more exciting for me to look forward to.

"You can possess the world

without manipulating it"

I'll live by that. And take it one day at a time.

I can't decide how quickly I want to grow up anymore. It's getting tougher and tougher to know how to react. I'm not sure if I'm going to regret wanting to grow up quickly or not.

Everything is right. But I wish my room would clean itself.